Go with the flow

I need to just go with the flow.

But also do stuff.

October 15th is the deadline for applications at Santa Clara University's graduate psychology program (for winter semester). I think I'm going to go for it. Seriously. But that's 5 1/2 months away so you never know. All I know is that I have to get things together.

LOVE YOU ALL.

Graduate

Ambivalence

I say I want to go, but at the same time I don't. I don't know. I feel like maybe it's my time, that maybe I should leave. I feel in some ways that I'm being told to leave. And then on the other end, I feel desperate to cling on, to stay.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want. It's so frustrating.

Sisters, we're a couple of sisters!

We are so cool.

I need this

If I could do like 5 loads of laundry at once, that would be amazing. I am determined to deal with this laundry chaos that have. It's a situation. Yeah, it's for reals. So I need to be GOOD today and do laundry! And deal with house things! Because the awesome Meghan arrives on Monday!! She knows I'm a slob kabob and all but still, I feel that things need to be in some order.

Time to take this crazy puppy (who is looking like a dog more and more each day) to puppy class. We haven't been practicing. :( Whoopsies.

Hey loser!

So I was interviewing with a fabulous local company... today I got...

I went out and bought fatty dress pants for it and everything and didn't even get to go in for an in-person interview. :(

Consumer whore

I did a very consumer whore-ish thing yesterday and ordered an iPad. Why, you ask? I don't have an answer. Well, I had been thinking about it since way before it came out. I am a silly girl. Let's leave it at that, shall we?

I'm doing something that's really hard for me to do right now, and I don't want to talk about it on this public forum, but please keep your fingers crossed for me, mmm'kay?

This was kind of a lame post. Sorry, dudes. I guess I'm in a lame mood. I felt like posting but I also feel like I can't post about things I really want to talk about. That sucks.

Things that I can do today after my appointment:
1. Catch up on LOST (1 episode)
2. Catch up on Sarah Silverman (3 episodes)
3. Read (I hear it's good for the brain or something?)
4. Take DK to a dog park
5. Write in my journal
6. Clean up 'round these parts (badly needed)
7. Laundry and put away all my freaking clothes already
8. Call my credit card companies for my cashback bonus checks

I'd say that's plenty of stuff to do and choose from, wouldn't you?

Where's my cry?

I was expecting a nice big cry today. I may have to resort to playing the guaranteed tearjerker, Colorblind.

I need to join a group for people that hate their dogs. Maybe if I accept it, it will get better? Right now she just crapped on the floor (a nice long trail of plops 'cause girl's got the trots AGAIN) and barking at the cats. Earlier she scared a young girl on the sidewalk with her barking. The girl looked terrified. I said, "She's only a puppy! Don't worry! She won't hurt you!" and it was like I said nothing. OK, now my dog is scaring people. I don't like that. Bitch needs to go to boot camp!

I got blood drawn today (I'm seeing my doctor on Monday) and I got some of the results already. My glucose is slightly high. What's up with that? My doctor wants to re-check I think. Ugh. It already took 2 sticks to get this one and I'd really rather not go to the lab again tomorrow.

So it's my 8th anniversary at my company and I have a lot of...feelings. This is why I should cry (well, that and the craziness that is my puppy)... I guess I better load up iTunes...

She says

There are so many things I want to tell him.

Because he's so wrong about me. Whatever has gotten into his head has been poisoned. I know he was right about some things, and I've apologized. I'm not one to ignore people's feedback and not make an effort to change. I really try to make things good again. I hate this.

And I hate feeling like I have to censor myself so much on my own blog. But I guess it's for the best since I'm sort of on the hunt for a new gig.

I just wish things were different.


Oh, and I totally want an iPad.

Dakota and Erin

Run free!

Dakota got to go to her first dog park a few days ago and run free without the leash for the very first time! But here in this picture, she's just chilling out by me.

She also has a friend at puppy school named Reggie & we're going to set up a play date for the two of them sometime soon. Cute!

Here's DK and Reggie at puppy class yesterday:

They love each other.

Big DK!

DK is getting so big. She got her first haircut and nail trim, her last set of shots, and today she got to go to the dog park for the first time. There were no small dogs to play with but this was the first time letting her off the leash so first she just ran around in there. Then we took her into the big dog area and she "played" a little (I hesitate to say that big GINORMOUS dog really was "playing." But hey, my dog survived and it totally wore her out, which is a good thing! She's passed out on the couch right now.

This week I came down with a cold and of course I was shocked because I never get sick! It's not so bad though.