Ghostwriters

UGH.

If you have to hire a ghostwriter because you're too dumb to write your own book then maybe you shouldn't be putting out a book?

The hokey pokey

I have a feeling that this week is going to be loooooooooooong. So I'm glad that it starts on a Tuesday. I came down with a cold on Saturday morning -- woke up with a sore throat and spent the day on the couch. Yesterday I took Dakota on two play dates and that was nice. I don't understand my dog at all, though. She's at day care today...I need to pick her up in an hour. I'm pretty exhausted today. String together all these poorly-written sentences and you get this crappy post. Deep.

Mexican't

Looks like I won't be going to Mexico in July. There are too many reasons why it's a bad idea right now:
- just got back to work this week
- job insecurity
- money reasons
- I'm too fat and there's too much pressure on me at the gym for the next 6 weeks and it's making me insane
It SUCKS that I had to turn this down because I want to go sooooooooo bad!

My trainer keeps putting his foot in his mouth, saying things to me he shouldn't and it's pissing me off.

And we're back

Back to work! Yesterday was my first day back. It was kind of a crazy day, and I only worked a half day. Truth be told I was an anxious mess. I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to be doing but let's just say my manager doesn't quite know...anything. Yeah, so not helpful. I thought he was being helpful at first but then when I checked in with other people, they contradicted what he had told me. So, there is definitely confusion around my job. I figure that if they at least have things to do, I can make myself useful and you know, not lose my job, which I've been freaking out about.

Welcome back, me.

Not ready

I have realized I don't want to leave; I don't want to be let go. I hope it works out. These two months haven't been a vacation. I want to work.

Please.

Shoes shoes shoes GAY

I am...not having the greatest day. I feel sick, but it's my fault for not taking care of myself. Suddenly nutrition scares me after a week of things being MUCH better. I have no idea what is going on, or how to explain, so I won't. :p

Blah, feeling lonely.


Back to work Monday. Woo! I'm ready to just deal with it.

This update was all disjointed and stuff. Blame my disjointed head.

Mwah!

How can this precious thing cause so much trouble?

Gyms

If you don't know, I hate exercise. I hate sweating. Gyms scare me.

Well, I went to a gym and met with a personal trainer on Tuesday. And guess what? I'm going back for a pilates reformer training session tomorrow. I know, crazy!!

Your mom

Happy Mom's day to all you mom's that aren't reading this post.

I guess I'm a psuedo-mom! Doesn't my little darling look like a stuffed animal here?

So me

Let's get down to business

My house is a MESS. A really big mess. I'm going to attempt to conquer this beast today. Usually I avoid it and well, that's not working out so well for me. So today... I try.

And it should do wonders for my brain as well.

Sometimes I forget...

What a cool company I get to work for!

Conan O'Brien and Andy Richter @ Google today

Graduate school

Let's get down to business. Or rather, psychology, because there's no way in hell I'm ever going to business school. Now that I've had some time off from work (medical leave), I've been thinking more about future, grad school... I looked up the deadlines for Santa Clara University's counseling psychology program. I missed the deadline for fall application, but the winter application isn't until October 15th. This gives me plenty of time to study and take the MAT (Miller's Analogy Test) and get everything in order. I mean, I should just DO. I have money set aside. There are student loans I can try to get, too.

I can't keep working in Finance. I've been thinking about this a lot and I've been so lucky to work where I work and get all the experience that I have, but it's not what I want to do; it's not what I have passion for. When I go back to work (May 24th) I don't know what is going to happen, but I'm preparing for it now. I have to be ready. All I know is that I have to really start thinking long-term. No more of this short-term crap.

My little trip to urgent care

So, I have some gastrointestinal issues and didn't take my Prilosec for about five days. Come Friday, starting around 8 am, I had this horrible gnawing and burning pain that was radiating to my chest, through my back, in my shoulders, and down my arms, especially the left. It wouldn't go away. So, feeling absolutely miserable, I made a little trek to Palo Alto's urgent care, hoping that they could do something (anything!) to help. I got there around 1:15ish maybe and they took me back into the treatment room right away because I said I was having abdominal and chest pain. I had to get totally nekkid (seriously, why did I have to take my underwear off??) and they did an EKG (so I got to lie there with my left boob exposed the whole time this test was being done. Goodbye, dignity!). The EKG was fine and then the doctor came in and told me a bunch of crap that I already knew and said to go take some Tylenol or Advil and more antacids and deal. I got home, feeling like an idiot, gulped down a bunch of Gaviscon and 3 Advils and a few hours later, the pain was much better.

All in all, I'd say that it totally sucked.