California!

I AM HOME! After 7 weeks (and 1 day), I am back home. It feels great. Driving a car again was so weird but I managed not to hit anything. I also managed to cut some dude off and then a few minutes later he cut me off and his passenger gave me the finger. Very mature. So I just smiled and waved at them. Seriously people, get over it.

I wrote something on the plane somewhere across the country but it's on my other computer so I'll have to post it later.

I'm reflecting a lot and I smile when I think about where I was, what I've accomplished, and where I am now. I look at my beautiful cats and I'm so happy to have them back. I woke up at 6:30 today, already 9:30 in Miami!, and then made four cards while sipping on coffee. It was very relaxing and fun. And I must say, the cards turned out awesome.

I must go shower now because I need to be at the hair place by 9:30. Finally taking care of my current hair woes. Goodbye, gray! Also going to get a lot chopped off I think. Maybe I'll post a pic!

Kelly!

Lately I have been entertaining myself with "Kelly" videos on YouTube. So hilarious! I highly recommend "Shoes" and "Let Me Borrow That Top."

Let me borrow that fucking top, betch!

Dig my grave

I spoke with the HR Rep for my department yesterday. It was a tough call. I did most of the talking (she really barely said anything) and I brought up my grievances and concerns. I told her how I think I've been treated unfairly and not given opportunities to perform at the level that they want, therefore backing me into a corner. I told her that when I go back to work (if?), I cannot go back to the same type of environment I was in which caused me to need another medical leave. It would be detrimental to my health and I've made so much progress here. I can't afford to regress. I can't take more of the abuse. Yes, it's abuse. I'm not exaggerating or making this up.

No manager should be able to make an employee feel so badly about themselves and screw with their self-worth. No human should do this to another human. I understand we give up power to others in so many ways but there are times to take a stand against it, and that's what I'm doing. It's not wrong and it's something I had to do for me because in my heart, this is how I feel and this is what I know I needed to do for myself. I can't let myself have any regrets. I can't let them control me any longer. I can't let them hurt me anymore or influence me to hurt myself. It is not okay anymore. I don't deserve it.

If they want me out so bad, then offer me a severance package and I'll take it. Perhaps even gladly.

Caffeine -- holla!

I got to have coffee today! It made a big difference. Me likey. :)

Stressed...

I have to talk to my HR Rep on the phone today. Can you say stressed? I have a lot of issues to bring up that are...touchy. I don't really expect her to do anything but feel that I need to be heard out. I need to do this for me and only me. It doesn't make it any easier though.

The picture says it all

Ten ten ten

It is 10/10/10 today. I feel like I should celebrate or something. I should strip and run through the streets. Right?

Things are going okay. I was practically dragged to a mall yesterday and it was torture. No more malls for me!

I'll be back in California on 10/28!!

Social Network

I saw The Social Network on Sunday and I kinda sorta lurved it. I love pretty boys and socially inept nerds.

Please, stop the tofu!

I am so tired of tofu. I am so tired of eating 5 times a day. I want to stab lunch and dinner in the eye and watch it slowly bleed to death. I'm tired of being cooped up, but it's so hot/humid here that I don't really want to spend time outside either. Lose-lose.

I guess I'm being a bummer. I've been tired, but sleeping at night. Can't fall asleep in the day no matter how much I try. I miss caffeine. Oh sweet, sweet caffeine...

I'm tired of being nauseous. I'm seeing a GI doc on Monday.

In happy news, I got to hang out with a tiny maltese puppy yesterday and she took a nap next to me. She was so adorable and sweet. It made me miss my pup greatly. Sleeping animals are the best!