Monday, May 28, 2012

I tried!

I made an honest attempt to work out today by getting into grubby clothes and stepping on my stupid ass Bowflex Treadclimber. I pressed start and NOTHING. Stupid piece of shit doesn't work. I was trying to sell it, but I couldn't get any takers so I was going to just use it and now I can't. I can't afford to get it fixed now either. I guess I'll have to stick to walking right now. And if that doesn't help, I'm going to consider an effing gym membership. Now I hate gyms. I hate working out. But I feel something must be done. Le sigh. I always feel effing ridiculous and horrible at gyms. I compare myself to everyone (who is always in much better shape than me) and I'm paranoid that everyone is looking at me, judging me. Helloooo social anxiety. Medicines have made a big difference with my social anxiety problems (it used to be really bad), but when I get to the gym I revert back... and then I stop going, and it's just a big waste of money. I can't exactly be wasting money right now. (Even though I uhhhh just bought a bunch of pajamas...)


Wellsies, I think that's all I have for now. Death to Bowflex!!!


Update: Just found out it's still under warranty. Hooray!

4 comments:

  1. this top comment is me:
    http://andrewsullivan.thedailybeast.com/2012/04/gyms-are-bad-for-you-ctd-2.html

    it's all true.

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  2. Thanks Katie. I know... I mean, I know I should just let it go but I have ISSUES.

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  3. Wow, I'm such an idiot. I didn't have the safety key in, which is why it didn't turn on!

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  4. Oh, I definitely get it - I've got issues too. It's just one less thing to overcome if you realize it's definitely just your issues, rather than your issues PLUS everyone else having issues with you.

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